I got a request yesterday from someone who wanted me to write more about my thoughts on submission. It’s hard to come up with topics sometimes that I think are ok to share. I am glad however that the things I have to say are helping people. That’s what I wanted from my blog in the first place.

Today already seems hard. I’ve made a few errors that really could have gone either way. These are the moments in a subs life where you don’t have all the info you need and you need to make a decision about what to do. Sometimes you are right. Sometimes you are wrong. Once you’ve made a few of these mistakes it’s hard to get out of the frame of mind that you are walking on egg shells. And once you start that cycle it all just goes down hill.

He’s not “upset” if you want to call it that anymore. It was really just an annoyed comment on what I did wrong but enough to make me feel bad about the mistake. So he’s over it and I’m not. That’s why the cycle stays in place. You can’t get over it…you aren’t the happy person you are suppose to be…you either make more mistakes or your attitude brings his attitude down. It sucks.

The answer to how you break the cycle? Yeah I don’t like the answer. It seems so easy and yet it’s just not. I guess because I want to hold onto my defensiveness about having been wrong. When I’m wrong I feel incompetant. When I feel incompetant I feel worthless. When I feel worthless it’s hard to see straight about almost everything. Jealousy arises. Resent arises. And it’s all for nothing if you just “get over it and move on”.

Originally there were ten months in the Roman calendar, which is why the last month is named December, derived from the Latin word for “ten.” Eventually, two more months were added, and during the reign of Julius Caesar further reforms were made to make the calendar more accurate. Julius also changed the name of the month Quintilis to July after himself. During his month games were held in his honor, called Ludi Victoriae Caesaris, or “Games of Victoria and Caesar.”

Victoria is the name of the goddess of victory, who was associated with Caesar. The games were held July 20 to 30. This is a good time to call on the goddess Victoria to assure success. It is also a time to participate in sports and any outdoor activities that should draw you. It is through the development of the virtue strength, or fortitude, that Victoria’s assistance is obtained in our regular daily life.

Daddy went down to see Tat tonight after she got off work. They took some pics and here’s a preview. We’ll be making a gallery for them asap. Idn’t she perrty??

I also took a bunch of pics today on my camphone. Go check em out.

I loaded more software on my box today and went to Curves. I was proud of myself for being more energetic while I worked out. Now you go be proud of yourselves and click some links!

Tat was great and got up the December 02 Archives! This wasn’t a bad pic for that month huh?   She also uploaded some of her school work stuff to her journal so go and take a look at those.

Unfortunately, we’ll be switching back to CCBill in a day or two (you can’t join just right now) because Glo-bill was hit by Visa for using adult processing. Those who signed up with Glo-bill will expire regularly. Then you’ll have to come back and join with CCbill. This means that Visa is no longer an option to get a membership. Talk to us if this is a problem and we’ll see what we can do about it.

Both Daddy, I, and his mom got new phones today. We qualified for a special rate on the camera phones so we went ahead and got them. We have been playing with them and I think this will make a neat new addition to the site. For now the pictures will be here (kimig2.textamerica.com) and I’ll let you know when I update the page. Daddy has a page as well. (soulhuntre.textamerica.com)

I had a pretty terrific weekend. On Saturday Tat ventured up our way. We had heard that a G2 fan and member of TES was going to be at Paddles Saturday night for a Spanking Demo so we thought we would head in just to check out what was going on. Tat arranged to get a massage which helpd her releax and loosen up some of the knots in her back and legs. Daddy and I headed straight for the Demo and she met us there when her appt. was done. She recommends her massuse so I may have to set an appt for myself sometime soon.

We had a really good time on Saturday night. Among the fun was the passing out of paint sticks which they encouraged people to break, offering to put it on the wall with the “hand” and “butt”‘s name on it. Of course Daddy had to make sure we were up there so he managed to eventually break it in two pieces then tried for a third and managed. So “Soulhuntre” “&” “Kimiko” will be on the wall at Paddles. Little do they know I’m famous. Hehehe.

After causing quite a few bruises trying to break the stick Tat perked up and offered to play with me! I would venture to say that it was almost as good as her massage was for her. I know…if you don’t get pain that might be a bit hard to understand. But throw in endorphins and you never know what you’ll get. I really enjoyed the scene with her and apparently so did everyone else watching.

Daddy got a few of Tat’s endorphins going after she and I played. They both looked pretty happy and Tat looked awsome in her matching pink bra and thong with her ankle length lace up boots on.

For the finale of my evening I got claps from those standing around when I put my fist through an extra paint stick. Daddy held it for me and I broke it. I was amused cause that’s the first thing I’ve ever broken. I rock!! LOL

Sunday we went to a matinee of Cradle of Life! I could go on for hours about Angelina but I won’t. Suffice it to say she looked SO good. I liked the movie too.

The norm is planned for the week. I should have my programs and cam back on my machine soon I hope. Thanks for the patience.

Sorry I haven’t been around on cam or in chat guys. We got Daddy a new machine on Wednesday and like all things in life, my machine decided to stop working. Unfortunately, I didn’t automaticlly get Daddy’s new box. So we’ve been messing with it for the last few days.

I have gotten XP back on the box and a browser but we have to hook up the other drives so that I can start transfering data and get back some of the important stuff so I can load other things. I shouldn’t be gone for too much longer. See you soon…

Kimi

Welcome to another Wednesday in the middle of summer. Summer hasn’t been behaving much like I remember it. That’s fine with me…I don’t really like it when it’s hot. It’s been raining and thundering alot. I love thunder storms. It’s freaked the cats out a bit but that’s normal. I was resting the other night and a tremendously loud thunder clap went off and scared the hell out of me. That was a first. But it was cool!

How is your summer going? I hope it’s going well.

I’m off to Curves again tonight. Yesterday I only did 2 rounds because I was feeling a little off, but 20 mins isn’t too bad I don’t think.

Come see me in the chat room tonight. I miss all you guys.

We hope that you had a good weekend. It was another warmish summer weekend here in NJ. We hung out and did what we normally do with a bit of rest thrown in here and there.

Tat had a family obligation she went to on Saturday and then Daddy went over to visit her. I hung out here and watched some TV, read a little and slept some as well.

What was your weekend like?

It’s a little hotter today then it has been the last few days. Phewy.

I got to Curves yesterday and then walked home. Unfortuately the store was all out of Shanghi Nights so we watched Miss Congeniality on TV.

Around the time I was settling in for sleep Daddy called and said he was headed home, so after an hour coma I got back up and hung out with him until the early morning.

So it’s Karate tonight and hopefully we’ll start our weight sessions tonight.

In the 1930’s when astronomers were busy measuring the distance to nearby stars, Arcturus was believed to be 40 light-years distant. With emergent photocell technology employed at the 1933 World Fair in Chicago, the light from Arcturus was collected and used to activate a series of switches. Light believed to originate at the time of the previous Chicago World Fair — the city had hosted it 40 years prior — was used to illuminate and officially open the Fair in 1933.