Things like this and the picture below….keep me from killing all of you.
Well…a round of headaches hit me right at the most inopportune time. I have SO much to do. UG. AND I’m having a hard time finding some of the G2 disks I’m looking for. Do you know how frustrating it is to know I have every single image from 5 cams for over 3 years and not be able to find the disk with the videos I’m looking for on them?? It’s Recess btw incase you are curious.
I skipped class again tonight cause of my head but it didn’t really stop me from over thinking a bunch of things I could have just set aside for a while. In the end I’m glad I was able to sort them out…but sheesh.
I feel like I’ve been on a roller-coaster for the last week and while I’ve enjoyed the highs, the lows have sucked ass. I don’t think the coaster is stopping any time soon but the serious g’s are lowering.
So, you might ask, what’s on the Kimi grand list of things to do in the next oh…week and change?
* finish a list I started (sorry)
* finish an article I was asked to write (sorry)
* make article from Interrogation notes from Flagg’s class (sorry)
* sell said article
* participate on fem dom boards to get cred
* deal with boys to get more calls/tributes
* set up pure-submission.com as the new Princess Kimi site
* design and create new P.K. site
* set up prettylittlethings.com again to promote my two NF groups
* design and re-create PLT site
* take more adult/tarot calls
* start linking gifted-reader.com
* continue hooking up with people for P. Kimi myspace
* help Tat with some stuff for her work
* go to class tomorrow to teach and make up my class
* update Sparkpeople.com
* finish my budget and my bills
* spend time with friends
* find the pictures and the videos I want to use for PK and to send to a friend
…..oh and sleep somewhere in there
I was a little pissy today. I needed Chester’s screaming…his hunky body, his lip piercing….words not withstanding.
Linkin Park – With You
So it’s been a while since I’ve written any fantasies for the viewing public. I know you all really liked them. With the fact that I’m trying to write more, doing phone sex again, have been reading Sinclair a lot, and well cause of inspiration….I wrote something today. Enjoy…and if you like it…maybe I’ll share more of them.
Iâ€™m sitting in your roomâ€¦I have my back to the doorâ€¦Iâ€™m playing with the kitty cause you had to step out of the room. You manage to come back in without me hearing you. You slip up behind me and suddenly my eyes are covered with a silk scarf that you tie behind my head. I gasp in surprise and my hands raise up to the silk covering my eyes. I hear you whisper suddenly, semi harshlyâ€¦mostly just with intensity and desire not to moveâ€¦not to make a sound.
You tell me to raise my arms up and I hesitate a littleâ€¦.Iâ€™m afraid youâ€™ll tickle meâ€¦.but you whisper â€œtrust meâ€, so after a small second I raise my hands high over my head. Your fingers brush under the hem of my shirt, feather light over my skin and then you slowly strip my shirt off me. You purr in my ear how beautiful you think I amâ€¦how you love how soft my skin isâ€¦how you love the taste of me as you leave soft trails of kisses over my shoulders after the shirt comes off. My hands are still over my head and you donâ€™t tell me to lower them. I feel you start to leave soft light kisses from the base of my neck down my spine and I shiver. You get to the top of my pants and then without missing a beat your tongue flicks out to lick a slow line back up the way you came. I make soft sounds, shivering, purring, unable to stop the small snake like movements of my back as you tease me.
I feel your mouth move to a shoulder as you gather my hair and shift it to one side. Your mouth is heaven on my flesh and then you begin nipping with your teeth as your hands fall along the skin of my sides. Your fingers splay out and wrap around to my stomach as they curve around my body. They meet in the middle then quickly without warning you scratch from the center to the sides and I gasp and moan dipping my head back. My arms begin to tremble, my body sensitive but you still donâ€™t allow them to descend. One hand travels up my side, past my shoulder, up my arm as the other hand moves itâ€™s way back to the center of my body. Your mouth still torments me with kisses and teasing little bites from my flesh.
Your fingers weave with the fingers of the hand youâ€™ve traveled up to meet and my torso curves in a slithering S involuntarily. Small noises escape my throat, my breathing coming in gasps, in quick soft sighs.
Without warning the hand that holds mine, pulls my arm down and behind my back as you simultaneously pull my body tight to your chest with the hand thatâ€™s captured me from the middle. If thatâ€™s not enough those two actions, combined with your mouth fusing to my throat as your teeth bite into me, is enough to pull a hungry growl from you and words praising God from me.
Your mouth and teeth suck upon my neck and I get weak, light headed. My body pliant, my breathing heavy, my skin slick with the sweat your actions have pulled from me; you know Iâ€™m soaked and I know youâ€™re hard.
Tat and I are getting ready to head back into the city. It’s the Dom Women/sub Men’s group and it’s a novice circle. I’m not sure if they’ll touch on any subjects that I need to hear about for “work” but I thought it was worth a shot to go in case they did and I wanted to keep Tat company. I’ve already filled out my calendar with stuff for Nov I want to see. Not much in Dec that peaked my interest but we have my bday and Xmas, not to mention my mom’s, Daddy’s parents, and Tat’s bdays that month. I think it’ll be full enough.
Flagg’s meeting last night was really good. I took notes and am gonna write up what I learned. I’ve heard it before and I remember most of what he’s had to say aside from having been in the last workshop as an “informant” but I don’t mind writing it up for any of you who couldn’t go or just want to have the notes that I found important. Just let me know. I’ll either email it or post with Flagg’s permission.
It was good to see him. He looked tired but very happy to be out and about. We got to eat with him after the meeting and it was really nice to see him laughing. I hate when he’s upset and I’m right next to him. LOL
I made an offer last night during the meeting and then proceeded to mess it up. Live and learn I guess right? It wasn’t that big of thing but I worried a lot about how it looked on Daddy, Flagg, and DD. Then worried about what it said about me. Then worried that the gesture would completely be ruined with the mistake. All I could do was apologize and since it was accepted move on with it, and learn from next time.
I’ve been interested in the comments being made to the blog. Glad I have the “recent comments” section up now so you can see if there’s one thats been made you might not have seen. Again I appreciate everyone’s participation regardless of opinion. AND it’s really nice to see old faces again. *waves to all of you who know who you are*
Ok…gotta go…she’s waiting on me. Laters
I don’t say it much but I appreciate everyone who reads my blogs and makes comments…but I want to say it now while I’m thinking about it. I don’t often reply to comments like I should. There were two comments left on the “Princess” post. One from both side of the field.
The only thing I wish is I knew who the posters were. LOL Are you you people I know? Have we ever spoken?
Sometimes it helps me understand where someone is coming from to know who it is or what their life is like.
I guess while this doesn’t have anything to do with not putting a name on your post a similar thing that is important to me is knowing where I stand with someone. Wishing for truth no matter how bad it hurts. It’s what made me have issue with my ex-husband or ex-boyfriends of the past. It’s why I want a poly relationship…so I know that if there is “outside” activity….I “KNOW” about it….you know?
I’ve never been huge on “communicate, communicate, communicate” despite how much I like relationships where I can communicate….but I generally feel like if I know exactly what’s going on…I have no problem going “ok…at least we were all honest with what we want”….rather then being left to wonder how come no one ever told me.
So thank you to the person who told me how you felt no matter that I might not want to hear it…and thank you to the person who defended what I would like to have and saying you think I’m worth it. Both of your comments mean a lot to me.
I fought my guts out at karate tonight. I had 5 fights and didn’t loose any of them. According to Daddy I almost won 3 of them. I was SO so tired. It was hard to do the exercises. I took crap for the pushups as usual. He threatened to send me to the other class. I just said “yes sir”. I was the loudest person counting….and despite getting kinda sick between fight one and fight two…I didn’t tell anyone and I kept fighting. All the guys told me I did well and one even gave me a “wonder twins high 5″ and said “tonight was your night huh?” It’s nice that they encourage me.
Sometimes I think I want the world. I dont necessarily think I deserve it…but that doesn’t stop me from wanting it…
Take for instance the fact that, ultimately, I want to have my Daddy and my sister…and a boyfriend. That’s a lot to ask the world for. It’s a lot to ask from a boyfriend. “Hi…I’m gonna have great sex with you….go on dates with you and make you smile…we’ll even have a relationship if we can swing it….oh..but did I tell you that you can’t make any of the decisions about WHEN and where you get to see me? And well…ultimately you have to come second?” Nice huh?
How can you ask for something like that and expect someone to just be ok with it? Especially since the kind of guys I want…have a spine? I mean…what good are they to me if they can’t take a little dominant action with me in bed? LOL That sounds really horrible. But you get what I’m saying, right?
I’ve never been the kind of person who can have a fuck buddy. Don’t get me wrong…I’m trying to move slower then I have in previous situations…but I admit to wanting a boyfriend…not just a friend who I screw sometimes. I’d even go so far as to stay friends with a lot of benefits.
Just like I believed jealousy could be overcome in my relationship…deep in my little selfish heart of hearts I believe I can have it all. If I just work hard enough and do it right. But the fact of the matter is…am I the one doing most of the work? At least any of the work that’s noticeable.
What am I doing? I’m promising to work my ass off to not get a bf’s time revoked by getting trouble. I’m promising to maintain a happy attitude so that everyone is happy in the situation. There are a few other thoughts as to what I’d be offering but they seem really lame in comparison with the big one of “you can’t come first”.
Is it too much to ask someone? Is it to much too expect?
Is it too much to think I am worth asking someone to do that for me? I may be worth a lot…but that’s an awful hell of a lot.
And aside from that…is it possible to make my family happy too?