So here’s a tossed off list of things that are good about me before I go to the gym…

*i AM making an effort to go to the gym and dedicating my time even when i don’t want to do do it
*i created a concept, proposed, recorded, edited and published a product for someone i admire and it came out well
*i came up with an entire plot and ending by myself (with a little side help)
*i handled tesfest security and volunteering at the last few events (many people said i did a good job)
*i’ve kept to my word about not lying for the last several months
*i’ve kept my code of not saying things to intentionally hurt people even when i really want to
*i continue to fight even when i want to give in
*i have created, recorded, edited, and produced several good podcasts
*i won “best webcam girl” one year
*i have a way of making connections with people
*i have a talent for reading body langauge and helping people sometimes
*i’m occasionally very photogenic

that’s all you get. it’s all i can manage for the moment….later

Things are going ok. Daddy is still treating me better then I feel I deserve and lots of things are being worked on in all areas. I’ve been writing more. Been going to the gym regularly. Making an effort to be closer and good to my families. I haven’t lied knowingly except for once and I ended up coming clean with my Mom on that lie.

My motivation has been coming and going over the last week or two. I’m in the process of seeing if it has anything to do with taking (or in this case…not taking) the Xanax. When I went to see my psychaitrist she was pretty upset that my primary care doctor had given it to me. Both she and my therapist are concerned of the possibility of addiction and I get that. But she’s also under this impression that Xanax often kills people…thru various means. So I spent about two weeks actively refusing myself the Xanax when I felt like I needed it.

After a phone call to my mom where I felt a bit unstable I agreed that maybe I was being a little TOO cautious. I’ve felt better over the last two days but I’m keeping track to see if that’s due to other factors like active focus on my accomplishments, etc or if the help of the Xanax is a factor. Regardless I plan to talk to my psychatrist soon and I’m thinking of going to see an Endocrinologist to double check that all my chemistry is good. See I have a plan. LOL

I’ve been using the laptop a lot more and getting more writing done. I’m on Chapter 3 of Guardians and I actually finished mostof my plot points and wrote the ending in my head the other night. For the most part I feel like all that’s left to do is just write it. A very interesting feeling since it’s the first time I’ve felt that way. LOL

Other then those things….that’s about all that’s going on. Puppycat has been a wonderful companion and I’m feeling very blessed to have him around. (Thanks Tat!) I’m looking foward to more outside activities. I’m hoping to go ice skating soon now that my fricken sinus and ear infection is primarily over.

I have links I’m going to post soon so be on the look out for that. For now I just wanted to get something posted.

A TC episode is also coming to explain why I’m asking and where I’m at! It’ll be a good one. I’m really hyped about progress!

More then anything I need to know if you’d feel gyped if an episode was under 15 mins. Thanx!

Btw…I’m participating in a new blog doing video blogs at the moment. If you’d like to see go to http://www.atomalon.com

Anyway, I’m still sick and when we went to lay down I tossed and turned and coughed. So I got up so I wouldn’t wake him up and thought maybe I could do a little work while I was still awake. My machine was slow so I rebooted and rooted around for anything that might be slowing it down. Found some files in the delete bin…got lost for a few minutes. It left me feeling really really ill so I rebooted and used the time to just calm my stomach down, get my head straight, focus. I looked above my desk while I waited and saw two things that called to me. 1) A piece of paper I just taped up the other day that Daddy brought home for me. 2) My tarot cards…this deck is for when I need to do a reading and I’m at my desk.

They were both important and good for me to remember. They won’t fully make sense to you probably…but they do to me and I think in the future…some day I”m gonna look back on this post and go…”oh yeah…right!” and smile. That’s the hope anyway. I’ve made it impossible not to read ahead…I know….but I don’t really care much right now. LOL

The cards:
1) Tell me what lays ahead:
Eight of Swords Reversed, The Empress, The Knight of Cups, The Nine of Pentacles, The Queen of Swords

2) Is this really true?
Four of Cups, The Wish Card (Nine of Cups), Two of Pentacles, Eight of Pentacles Reversed, Ten of Pentacles

The Paper:
Failure is Never Final
Failure is never final! The only time you can’t afford to fail is the very last time you try. Failure doesn’t mean I’m a failure; it just means I haven’t yet succeeded. Failure doesn’t mean I have accomplished nothing; it just means I’ve learned something. Failure doesn’t mean I’ve been a fool; it just means I had enough faith to experiment. Failure doesn’t mean I’ve been disgraced; it just means I dared to try. Failure doesn’t mean I don’t have what it takes, it just means I must do things differently next time. Failure doesn’t mean I’m inferior; it just means I’m not perfect. Failure doesn’t mean I’ve wasted my time; it just means I have reason to start over. Failure doesn’t mean I should give up; it just means I must try harder. Failure doesn’t mean I’ll never make it; it just means I need more patience. Failure doesn’t mean I’m wrong; it just means I must find a better way.

My calendar: Kimi’s Calendar

Flickr Pictures (soulhuntre since he’s got a pro account) : http://www.flickr.com/photos/soulhuntre/

1)no i don’t regret what I did because it was a good learning experience, the feelings I felt were real, I think it needed to happen in order to be in the place I currently am now and on the road to being a better person.

2) the fact that i was given whatever chance this one happens to fall on, it is not lost on me and i am glad that it’s being given to me because i believe everyone can change and grow and that’s why i tend to give chances to.

3)yes I am aware that eventually chances run out and it’s my intention to never have to repeat the experience of letting my fear rule me into making bad choices when it’s much more likely that if I do it right to begin with I have a better chance at what i’m working for.

4) yes i’m aware that if i go out in public, especially to give the meeting on service on Sept 16th i may be challenged and/or criticized and as per the advice i was given by a friend, i am not going to continue to walk on eggshells…but let that girl go and being to be the new and improved me (with downy soft freshness). should it happen…i will have an answer

5) no i am not going to name names because to me it would feel as if I blamed that person for my lies and i don’t. this is about what “I” did. if you wish to know they were involved i’m sure either someone who knows is already planning on telling you or they will write their own blog.

I’m sure there are more but I’ve been up all night trying to get a project done which sadly I was not able to finish. It will be done when I return from DragonCon. There’s interesting stuff to read on Tale Chasing and I released a teaser for Guardians on the site.

Any pictures, posts, or recordings will likely go on Tale Chasing as my purpose in going involves mostly my writing and podcasting. So check there for cool stuff about my trip! Now…I finish getting stuff ready so I can go sleep on the plane. *smiles*

As someone with high self-confidence, you feel quite comfortable interacting with other people. Indeed, you find the company of others very stimulating and enjoy meeting new people. Your relaxed demeanor in groups makes people around you comfortable too. Perhaps because you feel comfortable talking about yourself, others tend to enjoy being around you and perceive you as socially competent.

The confidence that helps you feel comfortable talking to people also spills into your own personal beliefs about yourself. Although you have several strengths, it’s likely that you also acknowledge and accept your weaknesses. But unlike some people, you take full responsibility for your actions—you rarely regret things you’ve done in the past and are not embarrassed easily.

Perhaps the defining feature that sets you apart from most people is the exceptionally high standards that you set for yourself. Your competence in social gatherings as well as at work should provide ample evidence for this. With these characteristics, it’s very likely that people come to you for advice and generally think of you as someone with leader-like qualities.

Self-Control

The self-control personality dimension captures the way in which a person regulates and directs him or herself. Being low in self-control can be both good and bad. Occasionally people may be compelled to follow their intuitions and give in to their temptations, and your degree of self-control makes this likely to happen more often than not. This can be good in circumstances where being relaxed and open are important. However, in situations where it is necessary to be focused and careful, you might find that you do or say things that may be inappropriate.

As someone who exerts little control over your actions, you may find that you commit social blunders that might offend other people and get yourself in trouble. For example, if you’re given responsibility to work on a project that requires close attention to detail, you may be likely to overlook important details because you have difficulty staying focused. Consequently, you might feel more comfortable delegating such tasks to other people who are more detail oriented. Being able to recognize such characteristics in yourself and having more detail-oriented people do such tasks could be an effective way to manage your own stress level.

Low self-control may diminish your effectiveness at work. Acting too relaxed can make it difficult for you to focus on projects that require organized sequences of steps or stages. Thus, your ability to accomplish may be inconsistent. Indeed, it’s possible that you might be criticized periodically for being unreliable or unable to “stay within the lines.” Nonetheless, you may still experience many short-lived pleasures and never be thought of as boring.

Openness

As someone high in openness, you have a strong appreciation for beauty, both in art and nature. Indeed, it’s likely that you are easily absorbed in music and art, as well as natural phenomena. Another aspect of your openness is your emotional insight; that is, you probably have good access to and awareness of your own emotions.

Another aspect of the openness dimension is the tendency to think about abstract concepts and ideas. This thinking style may take the form of artistic and metaphorical use of language, and/or music composition or performance. Thus, it is likely that, either in your work or spare time, you enjoy activities that get your “creative juices” flowing.

Your tendency to be open-minded can have advantages and disadvantages. For instance, when there are no clear rules about how to approach a particular problem, your openness makes it easier for you to identify new ways to solve problems that might not be very obvious to people that are not as open as you are. In contrast, you may be bored easily in situations that lack high amounts of intellectual stimulation. In such cases, you might have difficulty excelling on projects that do not provide much stimulation or require much creative thinking.

Easygoingness

Easygoingness refers to one’s ability to relax. Based on your score, you appear to “take things as they come” and enjoy having a good time. However, being high in easygoingness also has the potential to produce stress in a number of ways. For example, you may find it difficult to complete tasks thoroughly and efficiently. In this way, being high in easygoingness cannot only make your life difficult, but also the lives of the people around you. Another potential problem with being too high in easygoingness is that it can provide you with gratification in the short-term, but in the long-term provide undesirable consequences.

High easygoingness, even when not seriously destructive, may also diminish your effectiveness at work, for example. You may find it aversive and difficult to put in all the effort that may sometimes be needed to effectively accomplish certain tasks. For this reason, your colleagues might view you as forgetful and unfocused.

I have always had this blog as a way for me to post about things I’ve learned about life and making myself a better person. Because I found myself in a position where there were people looking up to me, I also tried to be someone they had a reason to as well as a mentor and a good example. I have made a lot of progress over this last two years and come to several realizations. I’ve learned recently that in reaction to fear (while I always knew it as an issue just not that it was related to my fears) I lie. Everyone has something they do as a reaction to fear. Some people may argue and get defensive. Some people make jokes and laugh it off. Some people deal with it and then handle it rationally. There are both positive and negative ways of handling that fear. And until 2 days ago, I handled my fear by lying.

I’m having a difficult time knowing that everyone knows the extent of my dishonor and my “fear” is that I will have to live the rest of my life with everyone thinking I’m a horrible person who deserves nothing from anyone. I try to remind myself that I’m human and that so is everyone else and that no matter what they say to the world, deep down everyone knows that they themselves have made bad decisions. If nothing else I’m glad I can say that while I am one of those people, I took action to fix it. Kaizen

I don’t pretend that it is fixed, and while I’m scared to start all over while my fears snear at me from the side of the road (I’m big into analogy these days) I did the right thing and with enough work anything can be fixed.

What I am being offered is beyond anything I believe I deserve or could even imagine I would be given and I can’t thank those people enough. I want to thank everyone who’s been caring and supportive despite my actions. It means a lot to me. There are people who’s opinions matter to me, and it makes me sad that I’ve lost their respect. I know several of them will not let me gain it back. And that hurts.

I want so many things (always have), and among them I would like to be someone who’s worth being looked up to. Someone who’s honorable and someone who did the right thing no matter the cost and was willing to work though it all to get better.

I am sorry…but more then being sorry…I will fix it despite my fears.

I had a busy weekend. Went to help Flagg as per usual and then went to hang out with Brandon and some Floating World attendees. It was a lot fun and I had a good time getting out and hanging with him.

I’m working on the next part of Guardians and still seeking a few voice actors for some characters coming up. Things are going well with Holly’s Ebook and I’m on track to deliver to her before DragonCon in TWO WEEKS!!

Things are going a little slow with the “Thinking Sideways” workshop from Holly Lisle. Partly because I’m dividing my time between projects and the class. Currently I’m trying to get in touch with my Muse, so if you see her please let her know I’m patiently waiting for her to drop back by. It’s very much worth the time and money. A lot of it is helpful for life, not just writing. So I’m really digging it. I’m also going to use it to refine Guardians.

I’m including my entry for Mur’s Stories from the Third Wave in prep for her release of Playing For Keeps on the 25th. This was the first full-cast Stories of the Third Wave. Love Lines producer, editor, and concept created by Kimi Alexandre. All the participants created their own characters and their own lines for Love Lines.

* Dora Holly – Kimi Alexandre
* Jason Block – Jason Block
* Amora - Ivy Reisner
* Bruno – Chad Henderson
* Shelly – Paulette Jaxton
* Julie - Pamela Templin
* Kim - Comic Book Goddess

Love Lines - A story from the Third Wave

Last night I went down to Tat’s to hang with her and her puppies. Not only was the train late 25 mins but a thunderstorm hit hard around the time I was almost there which meant she had to come pick me up in the pouring rain. It was really cool of her to do that but in her new armored SUV that wasn’t a problem. We’d made arrangements to go see The Dark Knight but when we got to the movie theater we found that they’d lost power an hour earlier and still hadn’t gotten it back on. The whole complex including nearby restaurants had been shut down. So I convinced her to take me to Apple Bee’s so I could have a coke and some of the spinach and artichoke dip that I love so much.

I helped her do some laundry, take care of the dogs, and organize parts of her room a bit. It was fun looking out her big windows in her room watching 3 starlings have fun teasing the dogs by flying circles around them and getting them to give chase. Later on she made me some awesome pasta and Caesar chicken salad. We watched an episode of Psych and then it was time to get ready for sleep so that I could take her to the train for work in the morning. She let me borrow the car so I could get to a Dr. Appointment today after I hung out with the puppies for a while.

My appointment went well and I got some things taken care of. In extremely cool news, some of you may remember that back in February I got an idea to approach Holly Lisle about doing voice recordings of her ebooks. I even did one of her free ebook mini courses as a test run. Well last week she wrote and told me she was ready to give it a try. I’ll be recording and delivering “How to Write Page Turning Scenes” for her. I’m very excited about the project! It adds to my big list of things to do but I’m hyped about all the projects I’m doing. Here’s the list, mostly in order of what’s coming up:

finish and get up Chapter 1 of Guardians
edit and get up Interview with Tee Morris and Philippa Ballentine
record the first two chapters of Holly’s PTS and get them to her for approval
record “Love Lines” with an assembled cast for Stories from the Third Wave 2.0
edit that and get it to Mur
find the voice of Erin
finish chapter 2 of Guardians
edit and get up Interview with Mur Lafferty
finish PTS and turn into Holly
edit and get up chapter 2 of Guardians
* write chapter 3 to read at DragonCon

All that is the plan before we leave for DragonCon. Did I mention I never do things the easy way?

It’s official, Flagg’s book “The Forked Tongue” is now available for purchase. Here is part of the text from the rear dust jacket.

“This book is not comforting; it does not reassure. It does not teach anything a decent person needs to know. It is a book about BDSM, but it will teach you nothing about tying knots, swinging floggers or spanking. It does not comfort, it does not attempt to reach the vanilla public.

This book addresses control, it addresses change. The recreational uses of humiliation, conditioning, psychological torture, hypnotism and interrogation techniques are explored and laid bare, broken into usable steps and understandable, applicable concepts. It is a workshop of ruin, the tools necessary to cement lasting alteration and unforgettable experiences for those few who truly crave them.” – Flagg, The Forked Tongue

I am really proud of how the whole project worked out. Lot’s of folks helped bunches (I’ll leave specific thanks for Flagg to make at a later date) and while this is the first publication by Power In Practice… it certainly will not be the last.

Thanks again to everyone!

Two other friends of mine are giving away the pdf’s of their books free as promotion for their 8.8.08 release on Amazon! Check them out!
The Pitchers Pendant by Tee Morris - PDF
Digital Magic by Philippa Ballantine- PDF

The TESFest Volunteer party was Saturday from 7-10pm. I gave Jeff a hard time cause all he provided for us was pizza. Nice thought but where the hell was the candy. OH! That was for the “real” party afterwards. Gotcha! LOL. Did I mention I was wearing my boots all night?? I was quite the happy frisky Kimi. (frisky as in take no shit…give lots)

One of the guys I see at Paddles all the time, whom I can only assume is sub since he always has a collar and is always speaking to women as if they are more dominant then him, asked if I’d lock him in a cage. *shrugs* Sure….LOL He asked if he could get naked and after I made sure all I had to do was lock him up and leave him there for a while I said, why not! I “locked” him up with carabeeners…one on the cage, one to each wrist to the cage. He stayed in there a little over an hour. Most the time I just walked past him. A few times I asked if he wanted out yet. He was always very polite and asked if he could stay in a little longer.

I finally got to play with Peek! She’s a very cute, very funny and bubbly Asian girl who was on the Security Staff. Her owner had said I do go fire play on her at TesFest but it didn’t work out so I let them know I’d be at the party and they showed up for it. It was my first solo fire play scene. I was kinda nervous but Peek seemed trusting which put me at ease. It was a first for her too so she did really well. I only had one moment of not getting the fire out instantly on peek but she didn’t freak and I managed to not freak and get it out. Her owner reminded me I could light my hand on fire and touch skin so I started doing that alot. I only had it not go out twice but I figured out how to get it to die by flicking my hand out. Props to me for not wiping it on my skirt and lighting myself on fire!

A few times I went to dip my fire stick into the alcholol but stopped myself before I did. LOL Tat was really cool and lead some of the gawkers away and Daddy stayed and did crowd control. I was so happy I did well and I really enjoyed it! So now I list punching, boot worship, and fire play to things I like to do as a top.

Daddy tried out his sap gloves on me after doing a needle scene with Tat. I used them a little on one of the girls there who was more then happy to let me punch her back for a while. Took me some time to get the hang of hitting with the shot correctly. Made me feel stupid like I didn’t know how to hit. LOL

Daddy also experimented with “cell popping” or micro branding a little. If you look at my flickr you’ll see a few pictures of the marks. They look like bug bites really. Don’t expect them to stay that long.

There were some volunteers who couldn’t make it that I missed seeing but I understood not everyone could come. But I was a happy girl cause I had my shiny boots that I’d had done at TesFest and I fit nicely into my teal school girl skirt and a new vest that showed my cleavage nicely.

In other news, I was nominated for a parsec award for best writing related podcast. I was a voice in a short podcast piece “Divine Fire“, and I’ve been hanging on cam more while I do work and edit all the audio I’m behind on.

I’m trying to raise money to actually get to DragonCon to find out if I won the parsec so if you’d like to donate feel free! I’ve been doing lots of Keen, Niteflirt, and Advice calls to help on that front. So call if you are bored, want to donate, and actually get something out of it.

I had a good time. It was really nice to hang out with friends and family. It was nice to feel like I was a solid adult who could handle problems and take care of myself. I think I did well and didn’t really get in trouble. Managed touchy situations pretty well. I could have found time to hang out with the family more though and I feel kinda bad about that.

I got my boots done and they are beautiful. I made connections with a few people who wanted to play even though it didn’t really work out. I got to wrestle with BootBlack Jim and Brandon and even a second or two with Andersen and it was really fun.

I got to watch someone grow up and realize things about themselves and that made me really happy for them.

I got a lot of thank yous and compliments from people at the event. That was nice. It made me feel good. I even had a two hour period where I felt like I was the hottest thing walking around which made me feel amazing. I still say I wish I could bottle that feeling up and drink it when I get moody.

I’ve been kinda down since I got back. I’m so sore and tired. It’s hard to want to get back to work. And it turns out there was a problem at home and I need to go and visit my Mom. So I have to delay the podcast interviews and first chapter another week. I’m sorry but I’m also hoping everyone can forgive me for it.

That’s about all for now. I’m leaving Friday to go to Kansas but I’ll be back Tuesday evening. Hopefully I can get everything I need to to catch up done before that time.

• Writing and recording Chapter 1 Guardians
• Setting up GuardiansNovel.com
• Editing previous recorded Interviews to put up on TaleChasing soon
• Organizing all the volunteers for a BDSM festival next weekend
• Scheduling all the security volunteers for said event
• Helping with the scheduling of other events at said event
• Doing a final edit of my friend’s new book being released at said event - The Forked Tongue
• A complete server move for over 25 domains I’m associated with
• Planning and beginning the write of Chapter 2 of Guardians
• Taking Advice, Tarot, and “other” calls to make a little extra green
• Working out like a dog to loose some weight for the event

Whew…I’ve been busy.

Here’s what my next week and change looks like:

• Finishing placing a few spots left to fill at the event
• Organizing sheets and giving out all my volunteers their final hours for the event
• Finishing up the server move
• Taking a few extra calls for the cash
• Packing for the event
• Dying my hair before the event
• A small shopping trip to Khols before the event
• And then Thursday - Monday running around like mad and hopefully having some fun at THE EVENT!

What am I planning for after the event?

• Doing finishing edits on 3 interviews
• Putting up the PG Holyfield Interview
• Putting up the Mur Lafferty Interview
• Putting up the Tee Morris/Philippa Ballantine Interview (I did today)
• Putting up the first Chapter of Guardians
• Making some cash on phone calls so I can go to DragonCon
• Writing and putting up the 2nd Chapter of Guardians

And there you have it….where I been, what I’m doing, where I’m going. So hopefully you can understand why there has been a delay in not only podcast episodes for here…but for Guardians as well. Thank you for your understanding. Peace out

I’ve been doing really well the last few days. TesFest is gearing up and I’ve been doing my volunteer director duties every day now for a few weeks. I’m pretty proud of how it’s coming together. I’ve almost got all the volunteers we need…but not totally yet! Last night I decided (since I was still awake and jazzed about the stuff I was doing) to make a promo for TESFest and I LOVE how it turned out! Listen here!!

I also got another PowerInPractice Episode up.
I’ve gotten all the voices cast for the 1st Chapter and I’m hoping to record it tonight or tomorrow then piece it together. I’m very excited about it all.

I also learned how to make databases and transfer them and whole sites from one server to the other. They haven’t all be flawless transitions but at least 2 of them are ….mostly working. LOL
But hey, I consider myself doing damn fine work considering I’ve been up since yesterday afternoon with a 2 hour nap!
Take that! ::does the Oliva Munn up yours dance::

This book is not comforting; it does not reassure. It does not teach anything a decent person needs to know. It is a book about BDSM, but it will teach you nothing about tying knots, swinging floggers or spanking. It does not comfort, it does not attempt to reach the vanilla public.

This book addresses control, it addresses change. The recreational uses of humiliation, conditioning, psychological torture, hypnotism and interrogation techniques are explored and laid bare, broken into usable steps and understandable, applicable concepts. It is a workshop of ruin, the tools necessary to cement lasting alteration and unforgettable experiences for those few who truly crave them.

From The Forked Tongue:

“This is not a 101 or “BDSM for everyone”. Actually, this is not really for anyone.

Most of the things that are in this book I cannot sanction anyone doing to anyone else. Except, of course, that we do, and we will, and we want to. So here are tools to do them well, to do them ethically, and to enact your own, terrible sacraments. We seek to ascend, so we descend.

I called this book a mixed message, a perverse architecture, and so it is. The keystone of this edifice is inscribed with the heart of all these chapters, these words cut at cross-purpose:

“Here is something you should never do to anyone.
And here is exactly how to do it to someone you care about.”
(back cover text)

Available as of TES Fest, July 4, and through online book retail

I’m also gearing up to release my first chapter of Guardians as well as the release of the website to host it. www.guardiansnovel.com will be set up soon and I’m hoping for a June 10th release date on Chapter 1.

Other then that, I’m doing ok. The working out is going slow. Obviously it’s not as easy as I wanted it to be but I’m working on it. Trying to get ready for TesFest and then DragonCon on that. Meds are doing ok but I have had some ups and downs on depression and anxiety. Dealing as always. The headaches have been a bit of a bitch though.

We got a new bed cause the other one was pretty much dead so it’s alot like sleeping in the Princess and the Pea. Cool…but a little less comfy. We need one of those HUGE gooose down matresses to cover the bed. That would rock.

Ok….I was going to put in a video from youtube but they are being slow as crap so you’ll have to wait until next time.

So last night I went to lay down and couldn’t sleep. So I got back up, went downstairs and made chocolate covered strawberries. I stayed up more and did email and finished the first chapter of Guardians that I’m going to podcast over at Tale Chasing. I also decided I"m going to run a contest. You can find details here!

I had planned to do a podcast today (which I plan on actually doing tomorrow) but I saved it by recording two other podcasts that aren’t mine! Today was my first Interview of me!! You can hear it here. It’s actually run by one of my old KD/G2 fans. I’m so glad I’m still friends with my old peeps. The second half is NWS as it deals with my alternative lifestyle. So…keep that in mind.

I’m also linking to the first episode of the new show I am apparently a co-host of now. I was talking to a guy who I am on the forums with over at Darker Projects. He asked if anyone was going to DragonCon and I said yes. I think he thinks I know more people then I actually do but…lol. Anyway, he wanted to start his own podcast and had the idea of a geek discussion podcast and asked me to be on. We went from there to me as a co-host. Honestly, I’m happy to do it for a few reasons but I’ll have to tell him that I’m not going to be able to do much more then be on the show and maybe…maybe help with a little linking now and then. I’m so swamped with my work for Daddy, TesFest, my podcast, my novel, my contacts, my working out, DragonCon, etc. that I so don’t have the time. The show is called "Shooting the Bull" So feel free to head over and take a listen. If it goes the way we think…it might be a once a week or one every other week cast. I won’t be putting the episodes in my own blog. So subscribe over there if you care.

Ok…enough for now.

I’m getting really close to releasing my first chapter of my podcast novel, Guardians. I have another interview that should be up by tonight and several more in the can to edit. I have quite a few great casts planned to record and I’m still doing voice overs for people. I also had a great artist create a cover for my book. I’ll post it along with a link to the first chapter when it is up.

I’m getting things set for TesFest. I’m still looking for volunteers to fill a bunch of hours. It looks like I’m going to have my hands full for the event though because I’ll be taking care of Volunteers and helping run Security. I’m not planning on much sleep.

Things seem to be going ok relationship wise. I wish there was more time for talks but everyone around here has their own issues they are dealing with. Such is life.

In prep for >DCon and >TesFest I’m getting serious about weight loss. I’ve worked out regularly this week and hope to make it a habit. I’m also trying to eat correctly. Except for yesterday when I had a mini coke I haven’t been drinking soda and I’ve been staying away from candy. I’m still working on the carbs thing.

I keep people pretty updated on Twitter so if you are missing me come find me there. >KimiDreams is my name.